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Haiti
Donato "Danny" Pietrodangelo • My View • January 24, 2010
Haiti
is an enigma — at once beautiful and horrid, an island where daily
life is a perplexing tangle of struggle, irony and contradictions.
When search-and-rescue ends, the dead are buried and the rubble
moved, the real challenge of helping Haiti rebuild itself will
begin. Nature's cruel and indiscriminate destruction may have
brought with it a pivotal opportunity for the world to help Haiti
fix what was wrong well before the disaster: a complete lack of
infrastructure.
For generations, and despite billions in international aid, Haitians
have struggled to survive an brutal daily existence, exacerbated by
impassable roads, washed-out bridges, few hospitals, little clean
drinking water and only scattered dependable electricity.
To envision a future for the country, you have to understand the
pre-earthquake past.
Haiti is a land so squalid and disease-ridden that the average man
barely lives to be 60 and lives on as little as a dollar a day —
unless he dies of tuberculosis. Like the most Haitians, he probably
doesn't have a job, medicine, running water or electricity and can't
read or write.
In one word, Haiti is people — hundreds and hundreds of thousands.
An incalculable mass of humanity lives in a Port-au-Prince ghetto,
crisscrossed with slime-filled trenches, dirt paths, gagging smells
and row upon row of shacks made of tin patches, scrapes of wood and
paper. Ironically, it's called Cite Soleil though it's one of the
most dangerous ghettos in the world. (Even more bizarre, "Baby Doc"
Duvalier had it called Cite Simone, after his wife.)
A world away, but really just a few miles, the upscale suburb of
Petionville looks down on the capital. Here businessmen, government
officials and diplomats live in $300,000 homes and enjoy fine
restaurants, hotels and golf courses. Here a topless French tourist
sits by a sparkling swimming pool and later showers in fresh water
for lack of which children elsewhere are literally dying.
Not far away, gossiping, laughing young women beat clothes on river
rocks, doing laundry as they have for centuries — in a rural stream
in one of the country's few patches of forest. (Most of the country
is deforested, barren rock, the trees having been cut down to feed
cooking fires.)
Haiti
is a land of children — they make up 40 percent of the population.
Like anywhere, they giggle and clown, they pester and charm, in the
decrepit slums they call home. And they are the lucky ones. In a
country where dengue, malaria and diphtheria — diseases mostly
unknown in the U.S. — are endemic, about one in 20 Haitian
infants die at birth, one in five children is severely malnourished
and most have intestinal parasites.
From the beginning, turmoil and bloodshed found a home in Haiti. And
it all began when white Europeans claimed an island nobody had lost,
populated it with kidnapped black Africans, gave them Christianity,
then fought to keep their island and slaves from a changing cast of
other white Europeans
The indigenous Taino and Arawak people were eradicated in late 1400s
by Europeans diseases and Spanish swords. What followed was a
500-year political legacy of murder, treachery, persecution and
terror. In the early 1800s, a slave revolt against French
colonialists spawned the Republic of Haiti — the Western
Hemisphere's first independent black nation. Unfortunately, over the
next two centuries, self-serving politics and wretched social
conditions put the island nation on a spiral into hell, as the
country was victimized by foreign occupations, brutal father-and-son
dictators, military coups, extreme government corruption and growing
gang violence.
Now there's the earthquake.
Haiti
is at once depressing, enchanting, angering and harmonious. Amid the
endless flood of humanity, the depths of poverty and political
corruption, the country possesses an inherent beauty. Outside the
urban chaos, you'll find a people of dignity, quiet resolve and
spirit; a diverse culture of strong beliefs; and a society of
vibrant, effusive color. Early 20th century Haitian art, coveted by
public and private collectors, is both stunning and distinctive.
It is a land with a deep and
steadfast spirituality built on an intertwining of missionary
imports and the vestiges of African heritage. On a crowded hilly
road, women in pristine whites and gentle pastels walk in the
sweltering heat with men in dark coats and ties, to attend Mass.
They're coming from the same hills where, at night, you might hear
ceremonial drums in the distance. The people of Haiti are not to be
pitied. They are to be wondered.
Since 1990, Haiti has received more than $1.5 billion in aid just
from the U.S. and billions more from other public and private
sources. Too often aid came — like the still crated X-ray machines
in a university hospital — without instructions or instructors.
Fostering development carries the risk of fostering dependence.
Every year, hundreds of missions bring thousands of foreigners to
Haiti to help. Though well-intended and a "feel good" experience for
the visitors, too many of the pilgrimages end up giving away fish,
when they should have been passing out poles and giving fishing
lessons.
Which brings us back to the future.
For decades, Haiti has teetered on the edge of becoming a failed
state. Well before the earthquake, abysmal or nonexistent
infrastructure, along with an international blind eye to corruption,
has allowed aid to be squandered and stolen. That needs to and can
change. It's now more imperative — and possible — than ever.
In the aftermath of this horrific catastrophe, concurrent with
humanitarian relief efforts, the world's governments, organizations
and people have a chance to do it right. We need to provide relief
and hope to the people of Haiti, but most of all guidance, tools and
training, while fostering the empowerment Haitians need to rebuild
their nation.
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We know nothing about China. |
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For those of us raised in the 1950s, '60s and '70s, China had always
been, first, a mystical abstraction: Confucian temples, incense,
chanting monks and big-bellied Buddhas. And, second, a confluence
of stereotypes: Charlie Chan, Kung Fu masters, pasty -faced women
with big hair and small feet, suicidal infantry in the snows of
Korea, Mao and a sea of red book -waving followers bent on nuclear
Armageddon, tanks in Tiananmen Square, lead-laden toys and the
people who make nearly everything sold at Wal-Mart.
I've been as guilty as anyone.
Which makes you wonder, over the years, have the Chinese seen us as
an amalgamation of Southern Baptist revivals, Jerry Lewis, Ali
versus Foreman, Britney, Gettysburg, the Silent Majority, Kent State
and the people who will buy just about anything at
Wal-Mart?
Will that all change with the Olympics? No doubt, some. But let's
keep in mind that, aside from the games, Olympic festivities are an
extravagantly staged halftime show; a spectacular break, an
entertaining diversion from what went on before the show and what
happens after it ends. And, as with any performance, what you see or
don't see is up to the sponsors.
Just back from nearly three weeks in rural China, I realize that
what we don't know — beyond smogged-in Beijing — about a place
several millennia old, home to one out of every five earthlings and
the emerging epicenter of the planet's economy, is embarrassing and
more than a little dangerous.
We traveled by plane, boat, train, minivan and oxcart through the
Southwest provinces of Guangxi and Yunnan, which are predominantly
rural, relatively poor and more than 1,200 miles from the Olympic
frenzy.
The 13th -century Mongol invasion, Genghis and Kublai Khan, Marco
Polo, the silk trade, the horrors at the hands of Mao's Red Guard,
the brutality of the Japanese occupation, and the heroics of U.S.
pilots of the Flying Tigers squadron are all colorful threads in the
tapestry of this region's past.
In these provinces, we were able to experience two very different
sides of China: the velocity of tumultuous mega cities such as
Kunming (population 7.5 million) and the country’s remote, rural
roots -- villages and hamlets, tucked into tropical forested valleys
, cloud shrouded mountains or overlooking miles of terraced, rice
fields. Frequently, we were the only Westerners in town.
Most importantly, we caught a glimpse into the impending collision
of history, culture, class and economics threatening China. Through
a small window, we witnessed the odd and ironic convergence of East
and West, and the uneasy balance of creeping capitalism under
Communist governance.
China has gone from zero to 60 faster than a Lamborghini.
Take development. As you enter even medium -size cities, the view is
mind-boggling. Under construction superstructures in clusters of
three, four or five piercing the skies. These aren’t affordable
housing for farmers turned factory workers. They’re 20- to 30 -story
condos, office buildings, five -star hotels and apartments,
compliments of foreign investment — $70 billion last year —
and ready for the investors and their entourages already arriving.
Some of the units are expected to rent for $2,000 per month. That's
about six months' take-home pay for a Chinese middle manager, or
half the price of a new car.
But
there doesn't appear to be a master plan for this spiraling urban
expansion: A 12th -century temple sits in the shadow of a
new skyscraper; the view from a luxury hotel's 15th floor
is laundry drying on the roof of crumbling, concrete -block
apartments.
An interesting and ironic convergence of China’s old and new:
scaffolding surrounding the multi-story construction projects is
made – not from steel – but from large, lashed bamboo poles.
Newfound prosperity over the past 10 years has spawned a
unprecedented middle class. Earning as much as $10,000 per year, as
opposed to the average per -capita income of about $2,000 a year,
they have disposable income, a healthy habit for consumer goods and
an anxious need to keep up with their neighbors.
The result is disorienting — the best and worst of the West in
Chinese.
Backpack -carrying teens in acid jeans and T-shirts shop for stylish
shoes, fashionable clothes, jewelry and rhinestone -covered cell
phones. Girls giggle and gossip over lunch – bowls of noodles -- not
burgers, while boys check them out; young moms survey what’s
available in kids wear, while young families ponder which model
washing machine to buy.
Like Saturday in any mall in America. Between open front stores,
there are stalls enjoying brisk business, selling pork shish kabobs,
fried chicken feet and baskets of exotic fruits and vegetables. Old,
blind women tell fortunes on the sidewalk, while behind them, hungry
shoppers can choose from bowls of rice or noodles, small
fish-on-a-stick and lots of things I didn’t recognize A few blocks
over, an amused and friendly salesman invites us to sample his fare
— a table spread with ready-to -eat pig snouts, duck heads, snakes
and lizards.
At night, the action continues in garish pall of an endless row of
neon signs.
A piece of China few Olympic visitors will see is the rural
countryside. While I hate cliches, breathtaking doesn't do it
justice.
Take the Li River. It winds through towering, forested, limestone
mountains that the Chinese liken to dragon's teeth. Rising from the
river's edge — sometimes reaching up through a soft halo of clouds —
these towering, cylindrical formations are extraordinary wonders of
nature. Stretching far into the horizon, no two peaks are the same.
Farther west, the rural center of Yunnan province is a region frozen
in time. In a village called
Yuanyang, the
women are known for their intricately embroidered, vests, wraps,
tunics and hats. The stitch work is intertwined in rainbows of
color. These are everyday outfits worn by young girls walking
unabashedly with friends dressed T's and jeans. Merchandising has
made its inroads here as well. Shops with stylish clothes and
sportswear sharing ancient cobblestone roads with butcher stalls and
food vendors.
Again, breathtaking is insufficient to describe the rice fields of
Yuanyang. Terraces are carved into the slopes of hills, creating
cascading rows of brilliant green ribbons. The terraces themselves
are subdivided -- with low rock walls and small patches of other
crops – which create curved parcels of growing rice, individually
laid out to fit the unique shape of a particular terrace. The
stepping stone-like ridges, are tended as they have been for
centuries – by hand, with cycles and water buffalo drawn plows.
Viewed from above, there's peaceful symmetry to the scene, a design
that seems uniquely Chinese, in which farmers shape their crops to
the land, rather than the land to their crops.
Sad to say, it's a way of life that's quickly vanishing — and the
loss poses multiple problems for the Chinese government.
While Mao envisioned a classless society, capitalism doesn't. Rural
regions enjoy very little of China's new prosperity. While urbanites
earn an average $2,500 per year, rural residents make less than half
that, and six out of 10 make less than $600 per year. These
oppressively low wages cover little more than subsistence. For
instance, more than nine out of 10 urbanites own both refrigerators
and washing machines; in rural areas its three out of 10.
The disparity is causing discontent — sometimes violent — and an
exodus from farms to the city with hope for a factory job and dreams
of better life.
According to the government, every year, about 12 million farmers or
their off-spring move to the city. With 9 million city dwellers
currently without jobs, and the unemployment rate at 10 percent and
climbing, there are more and more shattered dreams. Another problem
for China is that, according to some estimates, dwindling farm life
meant rice production was lower in 2005 than it was in the year
2000. Since then, the decrease may have accelerated.
One of the most rewarding aspects of this eye-opening journey was
the people of China. Everywhere we went, without exception, people
were gracious, friendly, inviting and frequently curious. Kids
looked at us in wonder, as if we were extra terrestrials; moms
smiled proudly and encouraged us to take pictures of their beautiful
babies. We helped college students practice their English on the
train, and new friends helped me hail a village taxi — OK, an oxcart
— after making me join them in way too many toasts with very
potent Chinese rice wine.
As the self -appointed local U.S. Ambassador of goodwill from
Tallahassee, how could I refuse?
Donato – Danny – Pietrodangelo is a photographer, freelance writer
and longtime resident of Tallahassee. He made this journey with his
good friend Jim Kemp an Asian Studies scholar who speaks fluent
Mandarin, Jim’s friend, Larry Crider, and John Kish, his best
friend since first grade.
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Dogs
It’s
pretty clear they own him – and it stinks like a week old litter
box. I’m talking about Democrat feature writer Mark Hinson and the
feline lobby. He shamelessly promotes cats in his weekly
column, slyly trying to endear us to these creepy creatures. I’m
calling you out Mark. What’s the deal? Those lobbyists feeding your
catnip problem? Giving you free tickets to the Pussy Cat Dolls
concert? We’re onto you, you otherwise talented furball.
Every dog has its day my friend
and that day’s today. It’s all about fair play.
You see, dogs know all about
play. Cats? Not likely. Ever hear someone say “I’m going outside to
play with the cat?”
Unlike cats, dogs are really
versatile: You’ve got your house dogs and your yard dogs; huntin’
dogs and sock-gatherer dogs; Lap dogs and bed-hoggers; little dogs
that ride in Paris and Brittany’s purses (probably cats in disguise)
and real dogs like the soldier dogs serving in Iraq or K-9
dogs protecting us here at home and the beagles who work in the
Miami airport bravely sniffing out contraband fruit and vegetables
for our safety.
For me, dogs are an adult
acquired habit; my wife, a former psychiatric nurse, says I suffer
from dog deprived childhood syndrome. Like so many other victims,
it’s not my fault. You see, as a child my father was a mailman –
back when they rode those slow, one-gear, one ton bikes. Pure dog
bait. I had to settle for Lassie and Rin-Tin-Tin. For the longest
time I thought dogs only came in black and white.
Let’s
go back to the matter of play. Now living with three labs, I’ve
learned, to a dog, everything’s a toy and, when they’re home alone –
its playtime. Imagine the fun of unstuffing the couch; the challenge
of gnawing the leg off a dining room or turning that tiny, upturned
corner of wall paper in to a naked kitchen wall. Dogs enjoy equal
opportunity fun: the new Cole-Haans just as engaging as your old
Nikes. And you know she’s been having a heck of a good time when
she greets you at the door - dripping with syrup and covered in
flower - after a fun filled afternoon pantry raid. Get that kind of
entertainment
Felis catus.
No way. Dogs
really know how to have fun.
Now talk
about self assurance. What says social graces be damned more than a
creature lying spread eagle on his back, a drooling tongue hanging
out of his mouth, paws peddling the air, chasing a cat – or maybe my
father -- in doggy dreamland.
You’ve
got to admire a dog’s agility and determination. Just the other day
I was playing catch with our yellow lab Zoey. Tennis ball in mouth,
happily scampering back, she deftly scoops up another ball -- barely
breaking her stride - than skids to a dead stop. Intensely, she
turns her head from side to side, studing yet a third tennis ball
hidden under a bush. Every lab owner (and I use the term “owner
“loosely) knows what she’s thinking: “Sure my mouth is bulging with
balls. But I can do this. It’s just one more. No big deal. No
problem.”
But
not all dogs are destructive – or exceptionally agile. Take Buddy,
the dog formerly known as Prince (his name until we liberated him
from big dog rescue.) At two, Buddy’s a sweet, loveable 80 lb black
lab who’s well, not exactly a candidate for Mensa. He must have
missed ball-catching day at lab school, “Buddy, it’s not supposed to
bounce off your head. You’re supposed to catch the ball.” But offer
him a treat and he’ll recite multiplication tables. And, puppy
that he is, when it thunders, this big palooka slinks up to the top
of the bed so he can wrap his lanky body around the safety of your
head.
Growing
up dogless has its benefits. I was spared the terrible sadness of
knowing I’d outlive my friend. Sally, our third lab and the sweetest
dog ever born is 14. She can no longer jump on the bed, which she
accepts with dignity – while it tears at my heart.
I
absolutely hate the expression “putting a dog down.” You put down a
coffee cup or a newspaper, not a friend who’s given so much.
“Putting your dog to sleep” might be a naïve expression, but it
slightly lessens the awful pain of leaving the vets office, after
you stood there, rubbing her head, as I did for our yellow lab Abby,
as she sweetly drifted away. Yes, being there at the end breaks
your heart, but at the very least she deserves it and together you
find closure, knowing you’re a better person for having had her in
your live.
Besides,
all dogs go to heaven and before long, when you’re ready, another
little ball of fur will come scampering into your life.
Because
as a dog lover knows: there’s nothing softer than a dog’s ear,
colder than a canine nose, toaster than a fur bearing foot warmer or
wetter than a, “I’m up, you need get up so we can play,” lick . A
cat? I don’t think so.
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My Friend
Bob
(Is
depressed)
I
have a friend - let’s just call him Bob - who’s depressed.
Now, I’m not talking about the I’m so bummed and blue, my dog ran
off with my pick-up, my wife and my best friend kind of funk. .
No, Bob’s got the real deal – bipolar disorder they call it, aka
manic-depression. So, even if his
dog brings back the truck and his wife, and he gets a new best
friend, the funk doesn’t magically flee. Bob’s still depressed. Some
of the time. But not always.
And that’s the rub. Because what really drives Bob crazy (well, more
than he already is) is how the media makes it all sound so simple.
First, the news media. Every year on national depression day there’s
another inspiring celebrity depression confessional. It's a moving
article about how a celeb “came down” with depression, but after a
courageous battle, as well as perseverance and treatment, gets cured
– and a new TV sit-com. It’s a nice story, but hardly the full
story: the celeb has a health insurance policy with a two cent
deductible and full coverage for a 30 day stay at a “wellness” spa.
You too can get better provided your insurance covers mental health
services – if you have insurance at all.
Then we have the ads, “Do you wake up in the morning and want to get
under the bed instead of out of it? When you look at your
apartment’s dirty windows do you think about jumping through one
rather than cleaning it, then rule it out since you live on the
first floor? You may be depressed.” (Ya think?) “Ask your doctor
about Feelgoodaril.” Pretty soon you’ll be dancing in a field of
butterflies and singing to the critters like Sleeping Beauty in the
forest.
Sounds good to me. While I’m there I’ll ask the doc for some
Singular and Cialis too. Then, I’ll be happy, with clear sinuses,
and ready to score.
Ahh, were it that simple.
So, depressed Bob asked me to fill in some what’s left out of the
celebrity success stories and the advertised pharmaceutical miracles
(and, remind you he is neither a physician nor a mental health
professional).
First and foremost, you can’t cure depression. You can only treat it
-- more specifically, you can treat the symptoms. No one really
knows what causes depression, other than speculating that the
chemistry set in your brain has something mixed-up or missing.
Medicine typically works – or not. And no one really knows why.
Sometimes, it makes the darkness go away in a couple of weeks.
But if the first drug doesn’t work, you might be prescribed another
– and sometimes the second doesn't work. Or the third. Be prepared
for some potentially rough times. Trying to find a solution can be
frustrating, exasperating and depressing in itself – and can take
weeks, even months.
Most importantly, when you start felling better, don’t stop
taking your medicine because you feel better. Duh. You think it
might be the medicine?
No avoiding this one: the effective drug may have side effects. You
might have to choose between the lesser of two evils. Is feeling
better (“normal”) worth gaining a little weight? Or, when you’re
sitting in your bathtub, watching the sunset, it might not be a
matter of the right time. It might be more like when it is the right
time will I be up for it? (ALT: It might be more like when is the
right time, can I make it the right.)
If you have symptoms of depression, see a specialist. Yes, your
family doctor has some training in treating depression, but if you
break a bone, you go to an orthopedic surgeon. So if your psyche
needs tweaking, see a psychiatrist.
You have to be comfortable and confident with your shrink; if not
find another. Just be sure you’re not shopping for easier solutions.
Drugs alone may not work. Bob recommends therapy as well. Counseling
can help you work through things getting in the way of treatment –
things you’ve done, haven't done, or had done to you.
Exercise is a must. Yes, if you’re depressed, who wants to go to the
gym? Make yourself. You’ll feel better.
There are other treatments – some seemingly a bit bizarre but
promising: massive amounts of fish oil, a supplement called Sam-e,
Folic acid, Vitamin B Complex, light therapy and more.
And finally Bob wants to remind you: Hang in there. Don’t give up.
No one said finding a treatment that works is easy. Just ask someone
with cancer.
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Haiti
It’s
a land so squalid and disease-ridden that the average Haitian barely
lives to be 50. Yet, he conveys a sense of complacent dignity in the
garbage-filled Port-au-Prince slum he calls home.
It is a country having little
serious crime, but a 500-year history of death, treachery and
terror. It is the site of an early 1800s slave revolt that spawned
this hemisphere’s first independent black republic -- later
followed by yearly presidential assassinations, foreign occupations,
brutal dictators, military coups, foreign interventions, corruption
and fixed elections.
It is a topless French tourist in
a resort swimming pool – who later showers in water unfit to drink –
and laughing young women beating clothes on river rocks, as they do
their laundry in a rural stream.
It is people, thousands and
thousands of them, living in one square mile of Port-au-Prince,
covered with slime filled trenches, dirt paths, gagging smells and
row upon row of shacks made of tin patches, scrapes of wood and
paper, lined up side-by-side like booths in a decrepit carnival.
It is a land with a deep and
steadfast spirituality built on an intertwining of missionary
imports and the vestiges of African heritage. The icons of
Christianity – a crucifix, a mulatto Jesus – sharing a painting with
Damballah, the loa or voodoo spirit of life and wisdom. It is a
crowed road with women in pristine whites and gentle pastels, men in
coats and ties in the sweltering heat, coming out of the hills to
attend mass. Hills where you will hear distant ceremonial drums
tonight.
It
is a land of children – they giggle and clown, they pester and charm
– having beat the odds, since one in six born don’t see their first
birthday. And, it is a woman, proudly putting a dirty dress on a
child, smoothing it for the photographer, smiling
Haiti is at once depressing,
enchanting, angering and harmonious. Because, amid the endless flood
of humanity, barren treeless mountains, the pains of
underdevelopment and the depths of urban poverty – there is an
immense beauty in Haiti.
Looking beyond the squalor,
extreme poverty and sensational news stories, you find a land in the
shadow of a rich and complex history, a people of dignity, quiet
resolve and spirit; a diverse culture of strong beliefs – and a
society of vibrant, effusive color.
In spite of the struggle and
want, the people of Haiti are not to be pitied. They are to be
wondered.
(NOTE: This was
written in 1983, when
Jean-Claude
"Baby Doc" Duvalier was in power. Having
visited in the late 90s, after his exile -- and the US military
intervention, nothing had really changed -- except a skyrocketing
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You
Can’t Rebuild 58 Years
You can’t
really grasp the scope of loss until you get up-close
and personal. Looking at what was left, I couldn’t help
thinking it might have been better if the Colonel came
back and his home was simply gone. That it had been
washed into the Bayou and then Gulf, leaving nothing but
a slab of mud and lost memories. Seeing it in ruins had
to be worse.
“Fifty eight
years are gone,” he whispered through teary eyes,
shortly after we met. A veteran of World War II, Korea
and Vietnam, the 83 year old soldier surrendered to the
fact that, “you can’t rebuild 58 years.” During his 30
years in the Army, he was awarded the Bronze star. The
certificate was on the floor wet, in frame with broken
glass. The medal, if in the shambles, wasn’t found.
I can’t
fathom what he felt when he first came back to his
Gulfport home after the storm. From the front lawn, the
traditional brick house looks untouched. But inside, his
whole life was on the floor – broken, swollen and
moldy.
The images of
the storms’ continuing aftermath – the fetid conditions,
shattered trusses, neighborhoods turned to swamp and
obliterated small towns – can’t possibly convey what
it’s like when you walk through the door of just one of
these thousands of flooded homes. You’re stunned at
destruction, saddened by the immense loses and retching
from the putrid stink of spoiled food, rotting carpet
and mold covered walls. Nor can the very best news
footage bring you the surreal chaos of the destruction
caused by nothing more than rushing water – upturned and
shattered furniture, swollen doors and drawers, broken
glass and family photos, favorite books, and the
grandkid’s artwork dissolving into puddles of dank
sludge.
That’s what
he came back to. On TV, survivors proudly talk about how
they’ll rebuild. The Colonel and his now ill wife have
been married for 58 years and have lived in this house –
their first – for 36 of those years. At 83, rebuilding
isn’t likely.
A team of
volunteers from Tallahassee’s Trinity United Methodist
had come to help. Though not a member of the church I
asked to go. We carried out furniture, collected their
souvenirs and trinkets, sorted crystal and china, cut
out carpet, cracked open the back of a beautiful, ebony
cabinet, with doors too swollen to open, salvaged
prescriptions from the sewage in the bathroom and gagged
when someone moved a refrigerator full of rotting meat
and milk.
Heartbreaking
for me, a photographer, were the photos. People, places
and memories – some going back a hundred years –
disappeared into a milky paste as they were separated.
Tintype images, created in the 1800s, dissolved into
powdery flakes when exposed to light.
But for me,
there was a dark side to helping. Sorting through the
ruins, I couldn’t help but feel like a scavenger, a
character from the movie Road Warrior or maybe a
philanthropic looter asked to invade this man’s home and
privacy.
More
specifically, it would have been too overwhelming for
the Colonel and too overwhelming for his daughter to
decide what should be saved or trashed. So we did. So if
you pulled wet clothes from a drawer so you could move
the dresser. You had to decide. Save or toss? I found a
broken leg next to an antique chair. Will someone glue
it back on or does the chair go to the growing pile out
front? Does he want those lighters from his unit in
Korea? Are the wet dresses in a box under the bed
important? What about that water-soaked print he got in
Thailand or the carving from Japan?
You can’t help
but feeling like an officer on the Titanic – you get in
the lifeboat but you don’t. Worse yet, you feel like an
invasive intruder, a stranger violating the Colonel’s
privacy. How should I presume to judge which of his
memories are worth keeping?
The only
thing he specifically asked me to save was his
daughter’s baby book that had been meticulously kept by
his wife. Some of the ink had dissolved into light blue
stains, but most of the pages were readable. I smiled as
I read about what she liked to eat when she was two and
how she played nice with others when four. Later, pretty
horrified, I found I was privy to things she didn’t know
about herself. She’d never seen the book until that day.
People comfort
survivors by saying, “They’re only things. Thank God no
one was hurt.” But it’s not that simple. You can scoff
at the idea that we’re defined by our things. But in a
tragedy like this, you recognize the inverse: things
help define who we are, where we’ve been and what we
find important. Why did he save that newspaper clipping,
that book of matches, or those postcards? Because they
are – were – a part of his life, times and experiences.
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Analysts
like London give the decade far too much – and too
little – credit. Sex, drugs and rock and roll weren’t
invented in the 60s. They were just a response.
Call it a cliché, but mostly for the better, and
occasionally for the worse, the decade had far-reaching
effects on once-sacred norms. As a result, what were
then disquieting ideas and attitudes, furthered and
fostered by 60s activism – on human equality, social
responsibility and self-expression – are considered no
more than blandly, routine now.
Women, minorities and the disenfranchised were, and have
since been, beneficiaries of the perspectives, policies
and social consciousness that evolved in the 60s. I have
four sisters, two older, two younger, who grew up on
both sides of the decade. The opportunities and
attitudes each set of sisters experienced were very,
very different.
And, I never saw nor heard of anyone spitting on a
soldier. Rather, the worse I saw was disquieting
avoidance between those who served and those, who by
chance or chicanery, didn’t. Perhaps antiwar protests
did not directly end the war in Southeast Asia. But the
echoes of Vietnam have no doubt tempered US military
involvement since, in Central America, Bosnia, Somalia,
the Caribbean, and most recently in South American.
The student activists, soldiers, hippies, intellectuals,
Krishnas and, yes, Young Republicans have moved on –
some still true believers – to be middle-aged community
activists, environmentalists, corporate raiders, NYU
professors and unindicted co-conspirators. Oh, and let’s
not forget, president.
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Give
shelter, without judgment, no questions asked
The
first time I worked at the Shelter I was uncomfortable,
uneasy. I was there to conduct interviews for a
documentary, which meant getting up close and personal –
not the usual, cursory homeless contact of a dollar
through the car window.
You look out across the dining
room, to the people being served dinner, and for the new
comer, what started as uncomfortable becomes more and
more curious: a street-weary, leathery faced man,
sitting next to a clean-cut middle management type; an
old boy/young man, with broken front teeth, next to
someone’s grandfather; someone frightened, mumbling to
the invisible voices, next to a big, stern-faced,
muscular black man.
What’s the story? That’s what I
wanted to know professionally, but soon it started to
become personal: why are they here – why am I there?
I asked questions and listened:
vets who couldn’t adjust, not always from combat, but
from losing the structure of military life. Ex cons,
between past and future lock-ups, they said. Downsized
professionals with no families to fall back on. Young
guys on the road, finding an easy place to crash.
Middle-aged guys with no exceptional stories. A loud,
drunk that thought he was hilarious. More than a few
barely coherent men, crushed by the weight of depression
or trapped in their schizophrenic hallucinations.
I heard heart-wrenching stories,
outright hustles, and desperate hopelessness. A lot, but
not all, wanted a permanent home. Some wanted meaningful
jobs, others wanted non-specific help, others claimed to
be happy as is, and a few just wanted another drink.
But that night, they all got what they
needed most: a hot meal and a warm place to stay. No
questions asked. Nothing expected in return.
That, they told me was the beauty
of the Shelter.
Over the next six months, working
on the documentary, I learned a fair amount about
homelessness and homeless people. Few have permanent
jobs, though a number work day labor. About 30 – 40
percent are veterans. Anywhere between 40 – 70 percent
have addictions and/or have active mental illness.
Chronic health problems like hypertension, and pulmonary
and heart disease are common.
During the filming process, I was
struck with something: faced with a tough time – due to
money or a troubled mind – most of us have family,
friends, a church and others to say, “Don’t worry, I’ve
got your back.”
Not so if you’re homeless. Their
isolation is both cause and effect.
During production, I also learned
about programs serving the homeless, including the
future Comprehensive Human Services Center. Now, I was
struck with something else: some people don’t want or
aren’t ready to be healed, cured, saved, treated,
rescued or redeemed.
Not to be a cynic but, if you build
it, they won’t necessarily come, because our best
liberal, do-gooder intentions can’t make someone enroll
in job training, stop drinking, go to therapy, get off
the street, go to work, or take their psychotropic
medications. They have to be ready and want to.
Get there lives together? Some do,
and some don’t, according to the Shelter’s director.
And, he sees that as the beauty of the Shelter. It
provides a safety net for people on the streets,
providing them with a Spartan – but safe – haven,
getting them off the streets. And, if they want more,
referring them to programs offering more help, which in
the future will include the Human Services Center. But,
if they don’t want to get it together, that’s okay too.
The people I spoke with said, if
the Shelter wasn’t there, in town and easy to get to, or
if it made demands, they’d go back to the park benches,
street corners, doorways and forest encampments – like
the one that springs up in the woods behind my house,
when the whether gets nice.
When the project finished I moved
from observer to participant, from digital filmmaker to
volunteer, because I was struck with one final thing:
the Shelter needs to stay were it is and keep doing what
it does – a job that no one else can, will, nor wants to
do: providing shelter, without judgment, no questions
asked.
Danny Pietrodangelo, a 2001
finalist for the Tallahassee Democrat’s Volunteer of the
Year award, produced the award winning documentary,
Homeless In An All-America City, and recently
became a member of the Shelter board of directors.
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Channel 6 and the Victoria Secret Special
First,
let me make something absolutely clear: this is not
about being deprived of Heidi Klum. It's about
television programming, hypocrisy and choice.
That having been said, let me get
this straight. Am I to believe that a city revered as
the birthplace of streaking and the Golden Girls, a
place with weekly parties organized around Sunday
night's favorite misogynistic murderer — a county that
overwhelmingly passed the pig amendment — needs to be
protected by Channel 6, WCTV, from the moral assault of
women in underwear?
Get real — and honest — WCTV.
shows
— including highly
rated and acclaimed CBS shows like CSI, Without A
Trace and The District —
keep us watching nightly, with every primetime hour
serving up 3 –5 incidents of violence —
ranging from threats of physical harm to graphic sexual
assault.
As a
producer, I appreciate the craft of a good action story.
But, ask the average guy-parent if he feels more
uncomfortable watching, with his son (or daughter),
Heidi Klum in lingerie or the more
popular-than-ever crime story scene of blood seeping
onto the sidewalk from an open head wound. (Perhaps
neither, but by choice.)
Channel 6 might take the high
ground, arguing the objectification of women and
reinforcing unhealthy body images. But, I don’t recall
them preempting Miss USA or Miss Universe Pageants, you
know, the scholarship competitions, nor the Victoria’s
Secret’s advertisements?
Last week’s Newsweek argued the
pros and cons of children watching television. Both
sides basically came to the same, not too stunning
conclusion: make sure your kids are watching a regulated
amount of appropriate shows, view questionable material
with them and/or, simply turn the thing off —
exercising as a parent your right (and
responsibility) to choose.
Because that’s what this is about:
choice. When a local network affiliate chooses — on our
behalf — to selectively block a network show because
it deems the content not within its
definition of community standards, it is demeaning and
insulting — especially in a market with Tallahassee’s
demographics: educated, media-wise professionals. We
need a TV station in the nation’s 109th media market
acting in loco parentis as much as we need
another CBS show like Baby Bob. When a local
network affiliate like WCTV decides to selectively limit
our exposure to skin — but not murder and mayhem — it is
appalling hypocrisy.
We have ratings and warnings,
network censors and what’s left of the FCC (which found
the special lame, but acceptable) and choice. Oh, and an
agile index finger offended Tallahassean’s can use to
turn the thing off — without WCTV’s guidance or help.
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The Canal
I seem to have the hardest time remembering my
childhood. Then it comes back in bittersweet
glimpses, small, translucent bits and pieces.
Like Pat Flynn — my friend to this day, though I’ve
seen him only once in the last 15 years. He used to
live on one of those canals they dug years ago all
over South Florida to let Miami rise out of the
swamp.
Pat was not only a friend, he was my best friend.
Enigmatic, I would describe him now; weird but still
cool would have said it then. Straight black hair
dipped low across his forehead —looked tough — only
to meet whimsical blue eyes with deep sparkles.
Wide, salesman smile giving way to some real ly
raunchy 12-year-old talk.
He tried to be an altar boy, like me; I tried to
smoke Winstons, like him. Nei ther of us made it.
We were as different from each other as Miami is now
from what it was then. He dared, I deliberated. He
punched people, I negotiated. He was afraid of ghost
stories, I was afraid of his neigh bor, a regular at
juvenile hail. But, even though I never understood
why he tattooed his initials on his arm with ink
and a pin, we were inseparable..
And we had the canal.
It’s good how the feel sifts back:
steamy South Florida days, our shirts off, the trace
of a breeze carrying a dank smell off the water’s
edge behind Pat’s house. A 13-foot, flat-bottom
boat, 18-hp Johnson screaming. Tires thud ding on
dark, tar-coated beams of the wooden bridge overhead
(surely one of the last of its kind in Miami in the
‘60s), making this a creepy place to swim. I was
never crazy about jumping from the bridge’s
cross-timbers into shadowy black swirls of the
water. Pat loved it, of course.
A day-long round-trip to Hialeah:
Going there was no idle meander. For me, it had a
purpose. Pat’s cousin Paula lived in Hialeah,
conveniently, if I re member correctly, on the same
canal, or just across the street.
Paula had dark hair and deep, dark eyes and that
innocent but intentional sullen sensuality of
budding beauty. We kissed — several times — teeth
pressed hard against lips pressed hard against lips
pressed bard against teeth. It was coy practice for
Paula, frivolous favors. She was worshiped and she
knew it.
I was in 12-year-old love with Paula, no doubt
influenced by the song several years before, “Hey,
Hey Paula.” And no doubt because she was older, 14
at least.
Paula would spend the night with Pat’s sisters,
Theresa and Dee Dee. Barely, I recall a party:
dancing —crushing, sweaty, feet-shuffling hugs,
actually — to the warble of scratched 45s. When
everyone was gone or asleep,
we sat in the driveway with an evening for me.
Family everywhere — parents, breeze crackling the
palm-frond slivers, sisters, cousins, aunt, uncle.
Pat seemed and we talked. It’s a shame, the words
perpetually engulfed by family. They arid the
wonderings have faded. were good Irish Catholics,
the Flynns.
So, Paula lived by the canal. On sum- Pat’s father,
Joe, always seemed to look mer days, once in a
while, Pat and I me over with this cocked, part
sardonic, would cruise over. Actually, getting part
affectionate smile that said, “Boy, there was far
better than being there, what is going to become of
you?” (a fair which was boring for him and awkward
question). There was Pat’s mother, who used to make
me feel so good by telling me I was her second son.
There was, routinely, an invitation to stay over,
and there was usually something good to eat, once in
a while a reprimand and occasionally a hug, always
embarrass ing, always secretly welcome in an un
certain 12-year-old heart.
Getting to Paula’s was like being on the Jungle
Cruise at Disney World, except you could get really
stranded, really out of gas or really eaten by
something living at the water’s edge. On the way
there were reeds and the eerie-looking,
creature-hiding slime along the bank, which
periodically gave way to the sea walls of expensive
houses.
There were alligators. I saw a couple. Pretty
disconcerting; we used to ski in that water. There
were sea cows, inter-eating blobs of mammal that we
careful ly avoided, not so much for Jimmy Buffet or
Save the Manatee; it was the horrid thought of
hitting one of those big, gentle oddities and
sinking into the slime.
Skiing was the main event on the canal. Having been
born in New York City, I didn’t have any really good
rea son to know how to water ski. So Pat taught me.
The skis were like planks, about a foot wide and six
feet long.
The bow shot straight in the air, the Johnson wailed
— that distinct and pleasant outboard sound — the
air filled with the oddly good smell of blue exhaust
smoke and churning water, and then, with a shoulder-wretching
snap, I was up, slumping gracelessly, arms pulled
from sockets, watching for logs and sea cows and
alligators, heading towards the bend — the place
where i the canal angled towards Biscayne Bay — Pat
yahooing... It was great.
Until I fell. Nothing, nothing was more horrible
than waiting in that murky brown water until Pat
turned the boat around. (I can’t see my legs!) Well,
nothing except for something that had happened
several years earlier, also involving Pat, myself
and the canal.
I can’t recall the year I almost died in the canal.
But the horrifying moment I realized I was drowning
breaks though with unnerving detail and clarity.
I was drifting on an inner tube, 20 to 30
yards from Pat’s house. It slipped out and glided
gently away. I went after it. Being from New York, I
didn’t have any really good reason to know how to
swim, either. It was just out of reach. I remember
making forward progress for two or three grabs,
mostly from imitation, and then starting to go
under. Going down, seeing the murky water — though
it wasn’t as bad below, being amber and sun-streaked
and sparkling — coming up and yelling, going back
down. I managed to bob up and down screaming for
what seemed like forever, and I remember seeing Mrs.
Flynn in the back yard yelling, and I remember
thinking I can’t do this anymore, I’m going to
drown, because the next time I go under I’m going to
breathe water. I can see Pat dive — he could swim
like a fish and ski like a champion — and in a flash
he was pushing me another tube and pulling me on it
and taking me to the shore where his mother, nearly
hysterical, said 1 couldn’t go near the canal again
until I learned to swim. I did. Pat taught me.
On impulse not long ago, I pulled off the
expressway during a visit to Miami. I was drawn to
the canal, but also wary of the changes and
fragmented memories that haunt an old neighborhood.
A more powerful impulse pulled me into Pat’s
parents’ driveway. I thought of Paula.
When no one answered the door, I walked around the
back. What was I looking for? I had gone to college,
and I don’t think Pat had ever finished high school.
He was kind of wild — the tattoo, the Winstons, the
slicked-back hair. We had long ago drifted apart.
I rounded the corner, and there was the canal, not
nearly as wide as I remembered it. To my right,
there was Pat, floating in a wading pool with his
two or three kids.
Joe was there with that same skeptical look, Theresa
was there with a smile, Mrs. Flynn was there with a
hug. Pat looked good — no, great. He was working for
Florida Power, like Joe. He looked happy.
He said he’d seen my name in the pa per several
times. I told him, meaning it, that his kids were
beautiful. Small but sincere talk. He suggested we
walk down by the canal. At water’s edge he lit a
Winston, offered me one. He was a bit surprised when
I took it.
For the next few minutes, best friends shared the
breeze, letting translucent memories slip back,
mostly in what was unspoken. I never asked what
became of Paula. I’m not sure I need to know.
NOTE: This was published in 1984; I
received a several line letter from Paula, who had
seen this several years after it was published. It was
touching and sweet; I didn’t respond (nor did she
suggest I do). Perhaps we both knew it's was best not
to tamper with a memory.
Pat and I didn't stay in touch. Sadly, I learned
last year that Pat had died -- from lung cancer.
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